Monday 20 June 2016

No More Tears - Ozzy Osbourne

Lyrics:- A levee of tears to learn she'll never be coming back, the man in the dark will bring another attack - Roberts & Jabari

Song Choice:- The first track from Ozzy's first album recorded 'dry' seems quite apt as an anthem for my week ahead as do the lyrics 'No more tears' as there's a limit to just how fucking sorry you can feel for yourself before a good personal kicking up the arse gets you back into the sinus rhythm of life and back on the road to recovery.

You see, I've asked everyone, many times just how long will it take, and no one really seems to want to put their c's-on-the-b's and give me a working timespan - so I've worked one out for myself. 

The theory is that ones longest nerve is about 1000mm long and as they repair at 2.5mm a week - that's 40 weeks and if my 'C' in 'O' Level maths from 1978 is roughly right, that means roughly Christmas. That's this year I'll add, so that's good news as it could take longer but that's the reality check of my situation right now and one that's been very hard to take on the chin if I'm being honest.

And I may as well be honest as this blog is designed to be, to let you, the reader into my mindset and help you understand why, and what it is that drives me on to do what I do.

My question to you tonight is if you were in my shoes, what do you do? 

I'd really like to know, as you never know just what's around the corner and look what popped around mine. Only I can't remember when that was as my brain has started to go a bit blank.

Blank enough for no more tears...

Rory Coleman

976 Marathons - 241 ULTRA-marathons - 9 Guinness World Records - 13 Marathon des Sables - 8202 Days' Dry 



5 comments:

  1. I fully expect you on the start line with me #mds2017. Of that I have no doubt.

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  2. Rory, if I was in your shoes (or bare feet with pretty toenails) I'd be trying to do what you are. Allowing myself to cry, even mourn my life a few months ago, but then getting grief out of the way, trying to fully focus on recovery based on facts. And setting myself the most stretching challenges I can, because setting a challenge to walk..even though if I was in your shoes, it would be huge , I still think, in your shoes I'd need a crazy challenge. So I believe in your MDS 2017 challenge. If I was you and had done what you had, I'd go hell for leather for that. I'd also try to balance out the physical and find a good hypnotist/or person to help with meditation, because what's going on in your mind and soul is, as you know, just as critical. Tish

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  3. Wise words Tish and some 'Mind and Soul' help is a great idea...Hope you are well xx

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    1. I'm doing good, relatively speaking. Lots of reflection, a few tears, feeling a lot of old walls coming down.. Break through insight I think. But more importantly please know I'm here to help in any way I can too.

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  4. Rory, Id be mapping out a future bigger than my past.. with at least 600 months of life left the next 6 months to recover is only 1% of this, a mere smidge! So, what can I do today that makes me a better husband, father and patient, what can I do to recover stronger and focus on what I can control - small wins lead to great victories Rory and you were meant to take this path.. embrace the change and make the future bigger and better.. Love to you all, SG

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